It's been a crazy week. Classes started, so I'm up to my ears in lesson plans. Bar prep is in FULL SWING, which means at least 50 multiple choice questions every day - should be more. And life still goes on, which means chores and laundry (my husband fixed the washer!) and teaching piano and ALL the things. All of which to say . . . I haven't had time or energy to come up with a new post this week. But don't worry. I won't leave you hanging. This is a re-post from my old blog on letting go and dealing with emotions etc. Particularly apt for myself right now, so I thought I'd share it with you all.
There are several ways to deal with anger, frustration, sorrow and the like. Some people retaliate with force and sweep a path of destruction. Some people crumble to the ground and bemoan their trials. And some people don't seem affected at all. These last often take the most dangerous approach to trouble. They force their emotions aside as they deal with the problem at hand rationally. While it is extremely useful to have a level head when dealing with trials, it can also be extremely dangerous if you never release your emotions. I've seen first hand how burying your true emotions beneath layers of sturdy masks can damage and sometimes ruin relationships with everyone around you. If you don't deal with the entire problem, you may fall in to the trap of developing a sub-conscious grudge that will grow and grow until you can't stop it. But I also know how hard it is for these same people to let go of their control and just allow the emotions to take their course. So here's my advice:
1. Keeping a strong face in the midst of trials can be a good thing, especially if you have other people leaning on you for support. Everyone falling to pieces solves nothing. Just be careful of how many people you try to care for. If you are a generous and loving person, it's often hard to say no or to even realize when you should. You have to remember that in order to help them, you must also help yourself. If that means taking 5 minutes or 5 days away from everyone else who leans on you, then so be it. You don't want them to become annoying ticks rather than the friends and family you truly want to help and support.
2. When you do take time for yourself, find an outlet. Get the emotions out so that they don't continue to build up inside your heart. I find an outlet through my writing. Or talking to a very close friend. Remember that a true friendship has give and take. You rely on each other. Just make sure that you deal with the emotions and your own pain in a timely fashion. If you allow it to build up for too long, you often either forget it or become too overwhelmed.
3. Be aware that the sorrows of your past (unless dealt with properly) will probably encroach on your future. Some trial that you pushed aside years ago may suddenly resurface with vehemence. So please face your trials. Don't use comforting others as an excuse to hide once more behind the mask. You needn't face them alone. You can always find someone to help you, even if you can't see them.
Basically, don't bury your emotions and forget about them. Push them aside if the present case calls for it, but don't forget to pull them back in and find closure regarding whatever the issues may be. And if you have buried issues in your past, figure out how to solve them. Do whatever you can to ensure that your heart is no longer a potentially hazardous waiting zone for grudges and thoughts of revenge or depression. Seek out the light, and you will find it sooner or later.